The Coward

I played my second character piece (really it's the first) today in class.

Although I like Id better this piece seem generally well received.

I felt kind of lost while composing this one even though I had a particular character and idea in mind. I kept drifting towards a more tonal sound and this got quite frustrating.

I found that after I sat at the piano for a minute a new idea came and the rest was pretty easy going.

Some of the comments I received in class today were about the opening and closing phrase. It was said that I should try to vary it up a little bit so that it's not the exact same. Although I kinda liked it like that, I think I may tinker with that just to see what new possibilities there are.

Another thing that was commented upon was the use of pedal. I definitely agree that I need to keep the sound sustained in the measures where I had rests. I really like the sound that was produced so I plan on including that in the near future.

As for now, I'm going to take a little break from composing. 

Writing a composition for a few hours and then doing 3rd species counterpoint exercises was a little too much last night. 

'Night!

Id

So after all the stress and worrying I finally presented my piece today in class.

I really wish the CD player worked in the seminar room because I felt like you couldn't really hear much of my piece at all. 

I received positive feedback, which I was very pleased about and was encouraged to change some minor details such as the ending notes and changing chords to cluster symbols.

As I mentioned in class my character pieces are based on a RPG entitled Xenogears.

The main character, Fei, has three different personalities due to the conflicts and tragedies that have occurred in his life. These three personalities are: Fei, Id, and The Coward. This is based on the Freud analysis of the Ego, Id and Super-Ego. 

The piece which I presented today is going to be the second character piece in this trio. I plan on starting The Coward next which will be the first. Fei, the third piece, will be comprised of both Id and The Coward much like he is in the game.

The Coward is going to be a happier sounding piece. In the game it shows The Coward as a younger Fei who is watching a television with him kicking a ball as the picture. This contrasts very much with Id who holds all Fei's negative and horrible memories. Hopefully I can pull off this "happiness" while still remaining atonal.

The final piece, Fei, is going to be a mix of Id and The Coward, as I mentioned before, along with a few new elements. This relates back to the Super-Ego in that it is a balance between the Ego and Id. 

I just realized just how nerdy this is.

Sorry.

I just think this is a very cool way of looking at these character pieces instead of just picking random words like "mysterious" and "scary" and "peaceful" to use as a character. (Not saying there is anything wrong with pieces like that at all! - I just wanted something a little more meaningful.)

I think that is enough for now.

Thanks for listening.

Round 2.

I've been really stressing out about my compositions.

I got Sibelius a few days ago from a friend. (Thank God, he let me use his second copy.)

I was trying new things and seeing what I could come up with but I didn't like anything I wrote.

Finally after a few hours I came up with two systems that were completely different. At first I was going to go with opposing motives in the one piece, but then I decided to separate those two motives into two pieces. Now I'm stuck with two beginnings!

What next, indeed.

It's frustrating to see that this is so easy for some people whereas I feel like I'm completely lost.

I feel out of my league. 

I guess it'll come in time.

But the thing with that is, there isn't much time.

M.

Composition so far.

So as of right now all my chords are completed.

I had to change around a few because of some of the comments said in class.

In retrospect I wish I could've gotten someone else to play my chords for me so I could've heard what they sounded like. 

Comments from class:

Chord 10 was said to be really tense, but I didn't find that one to be harsh at all.

I did, however, change around the order and added a few notes to create a better line on the way down.

I was happy that my goal of having chord 8 be the most tense was realized.

Right now I'm working on the rhythmic aspect of it. I had sort of anticipated using a rhythmic pattern that Philip Glass would've used but I'm not sure how exactly I'm going to incorporate that into a "timeless" piece.

We'll see how it goes.

Testing, testing, 1, 2, 3.

I hope this works.